It was a year ago that Steve Tilford and I were in a car crash which killed Steve. I spoke about the accident and Steve publicly the day of the accident but have been silent since. There are many reasons for that some or, maybe all of which I will write about over the next few months. Events and people can have a profound impact on our lives. Steve definitely had that impact on many people including myself. This event had a big impact on my perspective on many things most of which I have also not shared. I had kinda set myself a goal to wait a year, I am glad I have.
There are some that will be offended by what I say in ways I can’t even imagine or understand. I could be flippant and say I don’t give a shit. That’s not true, I do care. We each have the right to express ourselves, opinions, thoughts, emotions, experiences and we should let others do the same with compassion.
I think I will start today with looking back on the accident, my experience, what I thought I knew happened and what I now know and don’t. I have talked to police, attorneys, and others, “truth” is a strange thing, I have learned that in a highly emotional state our brains quickly grasp onto facts and create a narrative of events without thinking critically if they are true. Over the last few months, I have thought more critically the events of that night. The police report, which I have but have not read. Others have shared parts of it and I know it has errors or at least is not as I remember the events. It’s not for me to define the truth for anyone else but It is time for me to recall and piece together the truth for myself.
For the first time, (as I write this) I have looked at my phone records for that night to get an idea of the timing of events and the time stamps on the photos. The question I don’t have an answer to only an idea was how long after the first accident did the second which killed Steve happen? This is my question today. Here are the records I have.
- 12:26AM I make my first call
- 12:31:58AM the photo on this post was taken. Steve on the right and Tucker in the van window.
- 12:32AM Is the first text
- 12:31AM is the first photo about 3 min later is my last photo
- 1:00AM is the next time I try to call Steve.
I was on the phone with others between 12:26 and 1:00. I had gone up the road and into a truck. When the next accident occurred I called Steve to see if he was ok and got no answer. The second accident must have accord near 1:00AM. I assume the truck had a block box and the exact time might know. I guess it was 34 min.
Anyone should feel free to ask me questions